♥ Sunday, June 10, 2007
i never thought that will happen to me in my life.walked into Pumpkin Patch without any smile.burst into tears the moment i stepped into the store room.Selene came in, pat on my back, gave me tissues and asked me what happened,but i couldn't speak any word. i just kept quiet.she asked me patiently questions by questions, i could only answer by nodding or shaking my head.colleagues tried to cheer me up.they were really understanding and did not ask any question about my tears.adjusted my emotions and went out to work.forced a smile on my face.even when my friends came, i joked, i laughed, but the heart hurt that badly.heart wasn't at work. i was that distracted that i even spilled Selene's root beer when i wanna open the drawer.when i asked who's drink is that. all she said was its was hers and its okay.sylvia and her helped to clear up the mess i made. felt really guilty.everything was fated.when i was thinking of a way to tell that i am going home myself after work,my parents appeared in front of me.mom told me they will wait till i knock off to send me home.ever since i was attached,i been spending very little time with parents.so little that i felt weird when i pull my dad's car door knob (cause i was too used to boyfriend's van) just now.hais.head hurt as though it will split anytime.how i wish i could knock myself unconscious now.at least, i won't feel the pain, both in the head and heart.i feel really really tired.so tired that i wish to give up at times.it was so long ago since i last felt truly happy and relax.i may hurt you with my words,
but you hurt me as much too.
Can somebody hug me tight
and tell me everything is alright...
right now?
with ❤, alicia`JYING
@ 12:31 AM
